Sunday, November 30, 2008
Thanksgiving Animal Count
Everyone who reads this blog knows I grew up in Montana and all of my family still lives there. Thanksgiving is a time of hunting and phone calls from Montana include the stories. My husband hunted with his father and friends as a child and young man in Montana. In fact, when I first started dating him, I was concerned that he skipped school to go deer hunting. Being that my father was a school principal, school trumped hunting. Hunting trips in my family were done during holidays and weekends. The one time I went hunting with my Dad to hunt rather than just being along for the trip, was a Thanksgiving morning. I am a sensitive person and killing animals was difficult for me. I was an excellent shot. I always did well in Rifle Club in high school. But on that Thanksgiving morning I missed the buck that was an easy shot; my Dad finished the task.
Hunting is a normal part of life in Montana still. I have no objections to it. Besides, the deer need to be controlled. Right in the city of Helena, they have become such a problem that the Helena Police Department instituted a program to decrease the numbers. The police shot and killed their quota for this year and butchered the animals for food for the needy. When deer become tame and unafraid of people, they can become quite obnoxious with their hooves and antlers. Dogs in Helena have been killed by antler goring. Yes, deer are beautiful and cute but they provide wonderful food for hunting families.
After we moved to Seattle, our foraging settled into fishing, crabbing, and clamming. Deer hunting around here with large numbers of folks who maybe are not as experienced as Montana hunters took any of the desire Dave had to continue the sport. Both of us are left with the memories of our childhoods. This is precisely why I love to receive the hunting adventure phone calls from Montana. It puts me right back 40 years to holiday table stories from my father.
Of course, in addition to the phone calls are pictures received via computer and text message. Just last night I was passing my phone around to show my family the buck my brother took down with just one shot---a big mule deer. Even my daughter Kaley has no problem with the idea of shooting the animals as long as they are eaten for food though she does not appreciate me sticking pictures of dead animals in her face. Lucas, actually, would very much like to go deer hunting and he loves the stories.
My brother, Jim, who is 59 and has spent his entire life in the woods learned something this year he had never known before. Evidently, moose growl. On a deer hunt, he spotted a moose in the trees but couldn't see if it was a bull or a cow. He was separated from his son, my nephew, Rick, who was with him. Jim later settled in a place to hopefully see a deer when he heard a startling and mean sort of growl. Immediately, he thought a bear might be a little too close for comfort and readied his gun. But, it turned out to be the curious moose. A moose was growling at him! Rick had heard it, too, and wondered what in the world the weird animal noise was. I personally have heard elk bleep and deer snort but I certainly did not know a moose would growl. Nope, Rick and Jim did not end up with a deer on this trip but what a great piece of new knowledge.
At this point, I will now list the animal count from my family this holiday season. They have no elk yet because the weather has been too warm and not enough snow is falling in the mountains to drive them to lower elevation. The elk hunting season has thus been extended into December. I might not have the animal count exact. I discovered I am suffering from chemo brain demonstrated by my significant and pathetic losses in Scrabble over the weekend. I am certain to be corrected.
My nephew Scott: one mountain sheep and one mountain goat
Scott's wife Megan: one deer
My nephew Rick: one buck and one doe
My nephew Sean and his wife Dawn: one buck and one doe
And finally my brother: two deer. Actually, he conveniently failed to tell me about one of his kills. I was talking to my Mom when she explained she would be receiving the meat from the "little" deer Jim killed near Glendive. You see, Montanans don't broadcast the killing of a smaller animal that may have looked huge in the forest. As a matter of fact, the last deer my husband killed while hunting with my Dad fit into this category and he never lived it down. Perhaps, this is a factor in his lack of deer hunting to this day. So yes, my brother succumbed to the fate of killing an "overgrown jack rabbit" and my mother spilled the beans. But he made up for it by getting the large mule deer this weekend.
And the big one ended up in the text message picture so I could spread the news to my family, too.
Everyone who reads this blog knows I grew up in Montana and all of my family still lives there. Thanksgiving is a time of hunting and phone calls from Montana include the stories. My husband hunted with his father and friends as a child and young man in Montana. In fact, when I first started dating him, I was concerned that he skipped school to go deer hunting. Being that my father was a school principal, school trumped hunting. Hunting trips in my family were done during holidays and weekends. The one time I went hunting with my Dad to hunt rather than just being along for the trip, was a Thanksgiving morning. I am a sensitive person and killing animals was difficult for me. I was an excellent shot. I always did well in Rifle Club in high school. But on that Thanksgiving morning I missed the buck that was an easy shot; my Dad finished the task.
Hunting is a normal part of life in Montana still. I have no objections to it. Besides, the deer need to be controlled. Right in the city of Helena, they have become such a problem that the Helena Police Department instituted a program to decrease the numbers. The police shot and killed their quota for this year and butchered the animals for food for the needy. When deer become tame and unafraid of people, they can become quite obnoxious with their hooves and antlers. Dogs in Helena have been killed by antler goring. Yes, deer are beautiful and cute but they provide wonderful food for hunting families.
After we moved to Seattle, our foraging settled into fishing, crabbing, and clamming. Deer hunting around here with large numbers of folks who maybe are not as experienced as Montana hunters took any of the desire Dave had to continue the sport. Both of us are left with the memories of our childhoods. This is precisely why I love to receive the hunting adventure phone calls from Montana. It puts me right back 40 years to holiday table stories from my father.
Of course, in addition to the phone calls are pictures received via computer and text message. Just last night I was passing my phone around to show my family the buck my brother took down with just one shot---a big mule deer. Even my daughter Kaley has no problem with the idea of shooting the animals as long as they are eaten for food though she does not appreciate me sticking pictures of dead animals in her face. Lucas, actually, would very much like to go deer hunting and he loves the stories.
My brother, Jim, who is 59 and has spent his entire life in the woods learned something this year he had never known before. Evidently, moose growl. On a deer hunt, he spotted a moose in the trees but couldn't see if it was a bull or a cow. He was separated from his son, my nephew, Rick, who was with him. Jim later settled in a place to hopefully see a deer when he heard a startling and mean sort of growl. Immediately, he thought a bear might be a little too close for comfort and readied his gun. But, it turned out to be the curious moose. A moose was growling at him! Rick had heard it, too, and wondered what in the world the weird animal noise was. I personally have heard elk bleep and deer snort but I certainly did not know a moose would growl. Nope, Rick and Jim did not end up with a deer on this trip but what a great piece of new knowledge.
At this point, I will now list the animal count from my family this holiday season. They have no elk yet because the weather has been too warm and not enough snow is falling in the mountains to drive them to lower elevation. The elk hunting season has thus been extended into December. I might not have the animal count exact. I discovered I am suffering from chemo brain demonstrated by my significant and pathetic losses in Scrabble over the weekend. I am certain to be corrected.
My nephew Scott: one mountain sheep and one mountain goat
Scott's wife Megan: one deer
My nephew Rick: one buck and one doe
My nephew Sean and his wife Dawn: one buck and one doe
And finally my brother: two deer. Actually, he conveniently failed to tell me about one of his kills. I was talking to my Mom when she explained she would be receiving the meat from the "little" deer Jim killed near Glendive. You see, Montanans don't broadcast the killing of a smaller animal that may have looked huge in the forest. As a matter of fact, the last deer my husband killed while hunting with my Dad fit into this category and he never lived it down. Perhaps, this is a factor in his lack of deer hunting to this day. So yes, my brother succumbed to the fate of killing an "overgrown jack rabbit" and my mother spilled the beans. But he made up for it by getting the large mule deer this weekend.
And the big one ended up in the text message picture so I could spread the news to my family, too.
// posted by Janet @ 12:38 PM
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Friday, November 28, 2008
My Thanksgiving
Yesterday morning was rough for me. The steroids from Monday's chemo had worn off and after eating my cereal, I retreated to my bed feeling terrible. The chemo is hard on my gut and the pain I experience is worse than any pain I felt from the no-longer-existing colon tumor. In addition, I just felt exhausted and crummy. My children are home and not being able to get out of bed and enjoy the morning with them upset me. Since being alive for the holidays is one of my triumphs, I at least want to enjoy them. Luckily, taking some extra medications and a nice hot shower helped me to rise out of my bed and to become upright on my perch in the family room where all of the action was. By noon, I was feeling much better. Being able to talk to my Mom, my brother, and his wife by phone from Montana further perked me up.
I did not want to miss out on Lucas and Kaley's annual tradition of making the cranberry orange relish. They have done this task together from the time they had to stand on chairs to accomplish it. As usual, cranberries hit the floor and Apolo grabbed them to munch down only to discover they taste quite terrible. Ah yes, seeing cranberries left by the dog on the area rug helped me feel even better. I was not missing out after all. And I managed to muster up enough energy to set my table with my china and real sliverware. Enjoying the look of the day was important to me since I knew the sense of taste would be lacking.
All of the cooking was done by Dave and Kaley. Listening to them bicker was also part of my entertainment. Giving orders and reminders from my couch perch was not helpful as they had everything under control down to the olives and pickles. Kaley wanted to do the turkey a la Alton Brown from the Food Channel. Dave made a fancy vegetable stock to brine the turkey for several hours. Kaley prepared and cooked the stuffing out of the bird as recommended by Brown. They then started the turkey at 500 degrees, turned it down but cooked it in half the time I usually do. I must admit, I make a terrific stuffed and roasted turkey so I was not completely comfortable turning over the reins. Since at this point in my chemo, food still tastes like sawdust, I couldn't tell how good everything was. All of the food looked fabulous and the turkey was moist but thoroughly cooked. Kaley even made me my own separate vegan pumpkin pie because I am continuing to avoid hard to digest dairy products. It was not bad as best I could tell. But, I do believe Dave decided the turkey brining was more trouble than it was worth.
The highlight, of course, was being around family and friends. Lucas and Magali and Kaley were here and we had a wonderful visit from one of Lucas' best friends, Beth and her beau, Cameron. I loved having them here and listening to Lucas and Beth talk about old high school times. I loved the advice Beth was giving to Kaley about graduate school, teaching little kids piano, and everything musical which I have no clue about. It was very calming to me. I do fear we may have kidnapped Beth so that the Sigars Thanksgiving feast may have been delayed, but I so thoroughly enjoyed Beth and Cameron's visit that I don't think I'll apologize to Chuck.
The result was a lovely Thanksgiving. At 10 AM yesterday, I did not think it would be possible. Leaving most of the dishes, we ended the day by watching "Some Like it Hot" starring Marilyn Monroe, Jack Lemmon, and Tony Curtis. The DVD was a gift to me from one of Dave's colleagues, Theo, to provide me with humor and entertainment. It was great and we all laughed at the old movie.
Yes, I am so thankful for my terrific husband and children. They are taking such good care of me.
Yesterday morning was rough for me. The steroids from Monday's chemo had worn off and after eating my cereal, I retreated to my bed feeling terrible. The chemo is hard on my gut and the pain I experience is worse than any pain I felt from the no-longer-existing colon tumor. In addition, I just felt exhausted and crummy. My children are home and not being able to get out of bed and enjoy the morning with them upset me. Since being alive for the holidays is one of my triumphs, I at least want to enjoy them. Luckily, taking some extra medications and a nice hot shower helped me to rise out of my bed and to become upright on my perch in the family room where all of the action was. By noon, I was feeling much better. Being able to talk to my Mom, my brother, and his wife by phone from Montana further perked me up.
I did not want to miss out on Lucas and Kaley's annual tradition of making the cranberry orange relish. They have done this task together from the time they had to stand on chairs to accomplish it. As usual, cranberries hit the floor and Apolo grabbed them to munch down only to discover they taste quite terrible. Ah yes, seeing cranberries left by the dog on the area rug helped me feel even better. I was not missing out after all. And I managed to muster up enough energy to set my table with my china and real sliverware. Enjoying the look of the day was important to me since I knew the sense of taste would be lacking.
All of the cooking was done by Dave and Kaley. Listening to them bicker was also part of my entertainment. Giving orders and reminders from my couch perch was not helpful as they had everything under control down to the olives and pickles. Kaley wanted to do the turkey a la Alton Brown from the Food Channel. Dave made a fancy vegetable stock to brine the turkey for several hours. Kaley prepared and cooked the stuffing out of the bird as recommended by Brown. They then started the turkey at 500 degrees, turned it down but cooked it in half the time I usually do. I must admit, I make a terrific stuffed and roasted turkey so I was not completely comfortable turning over the reins. Since at this point in my chemo, food still tastes like sawdust, I couldn't tell how good everything was. All of the food looked fabulous and the turkey was moist but thoroughly cooked. Kaley even made me my own separate vegan pumpkin pie because I am continuing to avoid hard to digest dairy products. It was not bad as best I could tell. But, I do believe Dave decided the turkey brining was more trouble than it was worth.
The highlight, of course, was being around family and friends. Lucas and Magali and Kaley were here and we had a wonderful visit from one of Lucas' best friends, Beth and her beau, Cameron. I loved having them here and listening to Lucas and Beth talk about old high school times. I loved the advice Beth was giving to Kaley about graduate school, teaching little kids piano, and everything musical which I have no clue about. It was very calming to me. I do fear we may have kidnapped Beth so that the Sigars Thanksgiving feast may have been delayed, but I so thoroughly enjoyed Beth and Cameron's visit that I don't think I'll apologize to Chuck.
The result was a lovely Thanksgiving. At 10 AM yesterday, I did not think it would be possible. Leaving most of the dishes, we ended the day by watching "Some Like it Hot" starring Marilyn Monroe, Jack Lemmon, and Tony Curtis. The DVD was a gift to me from one of Dave's colleagues, Theo, to provide me with humor and entertainment. It was great and we all laughed at the old movie.
Yes, I am so thankful for my terrific husband and children. They are taking such good care of me.
// posted by Janet @ 11:38 AM
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Tuesday, November 25, 2008
The Day After
My final and 12th chemo happened yesterday. Most of the time I had the same nurse, Eileen, so we gave her a little parting gift. Today and until tomorrow I am on my pump. My next CT scan will be Wednesday, a week from tomorrow. I don't feel too bad so I changed my dining room table to look more like Thanksgiving thanks to my high school friends (yet again, you darling people) who sent a Thanksgiving centerpiece.
But, what is this? The house is cold even though we turned on the heater fairly early this morning. Oh great! The furnace which is actually fairly new has stopped working. My dear husband promised me last summer while I was undergoing chemo that he would take care of the yearly furnace service before fall especially after our remodeling. Well, it did not happen (and yes, he has already had an earful from me) so here I am with my pump and kind of gimpy with neuropathies that are aggravated by cold waiting for someone to come and fix the furnace. They promised to come today but it could be as late as 10 PM. I told them I was a cancer patient on chemotherapy and I needed things fixed as soon as possible. At least we have a gas fireplace but Dave is at work and I am afraid to turn it on. It might melt my tubing from my pump or who knows---my pump might erupt in flames if I am too close.
The other thing that occurred this morning is Apolo decided to chew on the TV remote. I was sitting at the breakfast table when I heard a plastic kind of crunching. I did not pay too much attention because it sounded like he was chewing on his nylabone. But, he usually doesn't chew on it in the morning. Up I lept from the table which is like slow motion with my pump and gimpiness to discover he had stolen the remote. How many times is this he has chewed on a TV remote?? At least ten times. At 6 1/2 years old, I thought he was over this sort of thing. He is still mad that he did not get a walk on Sunday or yesterday and he will not get a walk today because I am on my pump and waiting for a FURNACE GUY.
Finally, as I was reading the papers today and checking as I always do, the obituaries, a thought occurred to me. I would like to see the oppobituaries. You know, the opposite. I can't help but look and I read about 52 or 45 year olds dying after long battles with cancer. Well, people do survive after battles with cancer. My Mom, for one. I think they should have little pictures of people in the little boxes with their stories of surviving strokes, heart attacks, mrsa, and cancer. And they could call it the "Oppobituaries." Yes, I would like that and I would find it inspiring instead of depressing.
Wish me luck. It is 65 degrees in this house and I am going to try to turn on the gas fireplace! I hope I don't end up in the obituaries as someone who caught themselves on fire because their chemo pump ignited.
The table before the food.
UPDATE: The furnace guy arrived at about 3 PM and fixed it. Yes! I guess the igniter had worn out so he replaced it. And we will have a maintenance next week. Total bill: $414 including next week's service. We didn't really need this right before the holidays but we did not exactly have a choice. Oh and I managed to turn the fireplace both on and off without blowing myself up. Whew!
My final and 12th chemo happened yesterday. Most of the time I had the same nurse, Eileen, so we gave her a little parting gift. Today and until tomorrow I am on my pump. My next CT scan will be Wednesday, a week from tomorrow. I don't feel too bad so I changed my dining room table to look more like Thanksgiving thanks to my high school friends (yet again, you darling people) who sent a Thanksgiving centerpiece.
But, what is this? The house is cold even though we turned on the heater fairly early this morning. Oh great! The furnace which is actually fairly new has stopped working. My dear husband promised me last summer while I was undergoing chemo that he would take care of the yearly furnace service before fall especially after our remodeling. Well, it did not happen (and yes, he has already had an earful from me) so here I am with my pump and kind of gimpy with neuropathies that are aggravated by cold waiting for someone to come and fix the furnace. They promised to come today but it could be as late as 10 PM. I told them I was a cancer patient on chemotherapy and I needed things fixed as soon as possible. At least we have a gas fireplace but Dave is at work and I am afraid to turn it on. It might melt my tubing from my pump or who knows---my pump might erupt in flames if I am too close.
The other thing that occurred this morning is Apolo decided to chew on the TV remote. I was sitting at the breakfast table when I heard a plastic kind of crunching. I did not pay too much attention because it sounded like he was chewing on his nylabone. But, he usually doesn't chew on it in the morning. Up I lept from the table which is like slow motion with my pump and gimpiness to discover he had stolen the remote. How many times is this he has chewed on a TV remote?? At least ten times. At 6 1/2 years old, I thought he was over this sort of thing. He is still mad that he did not get a walk on Sunday or yesterday and he will not get a walk today because I am on my pump and waiting for a FURNACE GUY.
Finally, as I was reading the papers today and checking as I always do, the obituaries, a thought occurred to me. I would like to see the oppobituaries. You know, the opposite. I can't help but look and I read about 52 or 45 year olds dying after long battles with cancer. Well, people do survive after battles with cancer. My Mom, for one. I think they should have little pictures of people in the little boxes with their stories of surviving strokes, heart attacks, mrsa, and cancer. And they could call it the "Oppobituaries." Yes, I would like that and I would find it inspiring instead of depressing.
Wish me luck. It is 65 degrees in this house and I am going to try to turn on the gas fireplace! I hope I don't end up in the obituaries as someone who caught themselves on fire because their chemo pump ignited.
The table before the food.
UPDATE: The furnace guy arrived at about 3 PM and fixed it. Yes! I guess the igniter had worn out so he replaced it. And we will have a maintenance next week. Total bill: $414 including next week's service. We didn't really need this right before the holidays but we did not exactly have a choice. Oh and I managed to turn the fireplace both on and off without blowing myself up. Whew!
// posted by Janet @ 10:52 AM
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Saturday, November 22, 2008
The Most Touching Gift
One of my best friends from my childhood created the most wonderful gift. Cathy and I have been friends since the second grade. For first grade, I had attended Helena's ghetto school. My parents bought a house on the growing east side of Helena and we moved out of the tiny basement apartment in the middle of town. Second grade landed me in a brand new school figuratively and literally. I was faced with a whole new set of children I had never seen before and Cathy, the prettiest little blonde girl, befriended me right away. We are still the best of friends and Cathy remains an attractive blonde. She has visited me twice from Montana since my diagnosis.
Yesterday, the UPS man left a box on my porch and I was puzzled. I have not yet gone through catalogs or ordered anything online for Christmas. But then I noticed the box was from Cathy. She sent me two hand painted wine glasses along with a poem she wrote for me. Needless to say, I melted into a puddle of tears. The poem is on pink paper with some Indian Paintbrush in the margins. I am so moved and touched by the gesture that I can't do anything but tear up about it. Here is the poem Cathy wrote for me:
JANET'S POEM
The news I received in June made me cry
How could this be, I don't want to die
The road has been hard, the road has been long
But the Lord has faithfully kept me strong
Friends have supported me from far and near
And they will be so very happy to hear
The last one has finally come
Chemo is thankfully done
At this point I have to say
I've looked forward to this day
As Dave goes to the cellar I must boast
about the bottle he will bring for the toast
It will be one of his very special wines
And I know it will taste deliciously fine
We will bring the glasses to our lips
And savor the taste as we sip
We will proclaim with a great big cheer
The last one is finally here
Love, Cathy
Thank you so much dear friend. The gift is beyond words and appreciated more than I can say. Thank you for being there and here for me.
One of my best friends from my childhood created the most wonderful gift. Cathy and I have been friends since the second grade. For first grade, I had attended Helena's ghetto school. My parents bought a house on the growing east side of Helena and we moved out of the tiny basement apartment in the middle of town. Second grade landed me in a brand new school figuratively and literally. I was faced with a whole new set of children I had never seen before and Cathy, the prettiest little blonde girl, befriended me right away. We are still the best of friends and Cathy remains an attractive blonde. She has visited me twice from Montana since my diagnosis.
Yesterday, the UPS man left a box on my porch and I was puzzled. I have not yet gone through catalogs or ordered anything online for Christmas. But then I noticed the box was from Cathy. She sent me two hand painted wine glasses along with a poem she wrote for me. Needless to say, I melted into a puddle of tears. The poem is on pink paper with some Indian Paintbrush in the margins. I am so moved and touched by the gesture that I can't do anything but tear up about it. Here is the poem Cathy wrote for me:
JANET'S POEM
The news I received in June made me cry
How could this be, I don't want to die
The road has been hard, the road has been long
But the Lord has faithfully kept me strong
Friends have supported me from far and near
And they will be so very happy to hear
The last one has finally come
Chemo is thankfully done
At this point I have to say
I've looked forward to this day
As Dave goes to the cellar I must boast
about the bottle he will bring for the toast
It will be one of his very special wines
And I know it will taste deliciously fine
We will bring the glasses to our lips
And savor the taste as we sip
We will proclaim with a great big cheer
The last one is finally here
Love, Cathy
Thank you so much dear friend. The gift is beyond words and appreciated more than I can say. Thank you for being there and here for me.
// posted by Janet @ 12:47 PM
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Thursday, November 20, 2008
Piles of Stuff
Since my diagnosis, cleaning my house has been limited. I find picking up a few things, dusting, and making my bed to be the extent of my energy. The dog hair drives Dave crazy so he is motivated to sweep and vacuum. Without the children here, these small efforts keep the house fairly orderly.
However, an exception exists in the form of piles in the family room/kitchen area. We all have these spots in our homes and I do believe they are inevitable. Men have to have a place to empty their pockets when they arrive home. Dave's spot is on my kitchen counter top in a corner area I like to keep open to put some of my pottery pieces. Usually, his I-phone plug in cord is hanging there. Of course, his wallet and I-phone are dumped there along with a couple of dirty kleenex tissues and spare change. Often, I see business cards, notes from his assistant, and receipts along with buttons and screws. Finally, if he has worn a tie, off it comes to be tangled with the I-phone cord. The next morning, when he goes to work, he takes the wallet and I-phone but leaves everything else to be mixed with the next load at the end of the day.
Our kitchen has a built-in desk. This is where the bills and the mail accumulate. For some reason, there is a big delay for taking the junk mail off the desk and placing it in the recycling bin. It is amazing how we put everything of importance on the desk but we still lose things only to find them months later right on the desk (like my jury summons a few months ago). Since I have not done much shopping, we have 3000 Bed, Bath, & Beyond coupons stacked there. Val-pak coupons for gutter cleaning and various restaurants are saved as if they are money. We pay bills online so the desk has about 1000 empty bill envelopes mixed with bank statements and other important documents. Rarely, do we see the bare surface of the desk.
The laundry room counter is through a door right next to the kitchen desk so it has become an extension of the kitchen desk. The thousands of medical bills and statements we have received for my treatment have found themselves in piles in the laundry room. At least Dave is organized and on top of the medical situation so the bills are at least in two or three rather neat piles. But still, I cannot use the counter top for its intended purpose---to fold laundry.
Last of all, I have a magazine pile. We have a glass table at the end of the couch. Actually, it is a piece of circular glass sitting on a stump. Ok, people, this is the Pacific Northwest and we have weird furniture out of trees and driftwood and shells and stuff. Not only does this end table hold a number of issues of Coastal Living and Food and Wine, but it has become the repository for all of the Christmas catalogs we receive everyday. The table is next to my regular perch since I have been sick, and I intend to do my Christmas shopping from this spot using the numerous catalogs. Nothing holds the glass to the stump and I fear the whole shabang is going to topple over in the middle of the night smashing glass everywhere and traumatizing Apolo even more than he already is.
The scary thing I noticed last night when Dave got home and brought in the mail is that once the pile places are filled to capacity, the kitchen counter top begins to be transformed into yet another spot for a pile. And this place becomes an unruly mixture of absolutely everything including newspapers. Before I got sick, on a regular basis it was my job to attack the piles. My efforts would fill the recycle bin and reveal surfaces we hadn't seen in weeks. I love my house to be clutter free. But lately, I haven't exactly had the energy.
Until I am feeling better after my last chemo, I think my house is doomed to piles. After all, you cannot expect a man for whom it is normal to clutter up a pretty part of my kitchen with the contents of the bowels of all of his pockets, to care about sorting through back issues of Coastal Living.
Since my diagnosis, cleaning my house has been limited. I find picking up a few things, dusting, and making my bed to be the extent of my energy. The dog hair drives Dave crazy so he is motivated to sweep and vacuum. Without the children here, these small efforts keep the house fairly orderly.
However, an exception exists in the form of piles in the family room/kitchen area. We all have these spots in our homes and I do believe they are inevitable. Men have to have a place to empty their pockets when they arrive home. Dave's spot is on my kitchen counter top in a corner area I like to keep open to put some of my pottery pieces. Usually, his I-phone plug in cord is hanging there. Of course, his wallet and I-phone are dumped there along with a couple of dirty kleenex tissues and spare change. Often, I see business cards, notes from his assistant, and receipts along with buttons and screws. Finally, if he has worn a tie, off it comes to be tangled with the I-phone cord. The next morning, when he goes to work, he takes the wallet and I-phone but leaves everything else to be mixed with the next load at the end of the day.
Our kitchen has a built-in desk. This is where the bills and the mail accumulate. For some reason, there is a big delay for taking the junk mail off the desk and placing it in the recycling bin. It is amazing how we put everything of importance on the desk but we still lose things only to find them months later right on the desk (like my jury summons a few months ago). Since I have not done much shopping, we have 3000 Bed, Bath, & Beyond coupons stacked there. Val-pak coupons for gutter cleaning and various restaurants are saved as if they are money. We pay bills online so the desk has about 1000 empty bill envelopes mixed with bank statements and other important documents. Rarely, do we see the bare surface of the desk.
The laundry room counter is through a door right next to the kitchen desk so it has become an extension of the kitchen desk. The thousands of medical bills and statements we have received for my treatment have found themselves in piles in the laundry room. At least Dave is organized and on top of the medical situation so the bills are at least in two or three rather neat piles. But still, I cannot use the counter top for its intended purpose---to fold laundry.
Last of all, I have a magazine pile. We have a glass table at the end of the couch. Actually, it is a piece of circular glass sitting on a stump. Ok, people, this is the Pacific Northwest and we have weird furniture out of trees and driftwood and shells and stuff. Not only does this end table hold a number of issues of Coastal Living and Food and Wine, but it has become the repository for all of the Christmas catalogs we receive everyday. The table is next to my regular perch since I have been sick, and I intend to do my Christmas shopping from this spot using the numerous catalogs. Nothing holds the glass to the stump and I fear the whole shabang is going to topple over in the middle of the night smashing glass everywhere and traumatizing Apolo even more than he already is.
The scary thing I noticed last night when Dave got home and brought in the mail is that once the pile places are filled to capacity, the kitchen counter top begins to be transformed into yet another spot for a pile. And this place becomes an unruly mixture of absolutely everything including newspapers. Before I got sick, on a regular basis it was my job to attack the piles. My efforts would fill the recycle bin and reveal surfaces we hadn't seen in weeks. I love my house to be clutter free. But lately, I haven't exactly had the energy.
Until I am feeling better after my last chemo, I think my house is doomed to piles. After all, you cannot expect a man for whom it is normal to clutter up a pretty part of my kitchen with the contents of the bowels of all of his pockets, to care about sorting through back issues of Coastal Living.
// posted by Janet @ 3:36 PM
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Monday, November 17, 2008
Busy Morning at Sea
While I was in my shower this morning, I watched a bald eagle swoop from tree to tree. Immediately after that, I saw a blue heron change roosts. Next, a Navy ship sailed by. And then going the other direction was a log jam pulled by a tug boat carrying its usual passenger load of seals.
Certainly, I was hoping none of the seals had any high powered binoculars but then I wondered about the Navy boat. Undoubtedly, they have some pretty high tech telescopes.
"Hey, Elwood, get a load of this."
"What, a bald eagle?"
"No, ha ha. Someone taking a shower. No kidding."
Elwood grabs the telescope to get a good look. "Hey, it's Nick Nolte. And it looks like he doesn't have any eyelashes. Ewwwwwwwww."
"Yea. Let's look at that bald eagle and blue heron over there. Much more pleasant sight. Whaddya say, Elwood?"
"Yep. I'm scarred for life and traumatized after seeing Nick Nolte in the shower. Wow!"
While I was in my shower this morning, I watched a bald eagle swoop from tree to tree. Immediately after that, I saw a blue heron change roosts. Next, a Navy ship sailed by. And then going the other direction was a log jam pulled by a tug boat carrying its usual passenger load of seals.
Certainly, I was hoping none of the seals had any high powered binoculars but then I wondered about the Navy boat. Undoubtedly, they have some pretty high tech telescopes.
"Hey, Elwood, get a load of this."
"What, a bald eagle?"
"No, ha ha. Someone taking a shower. No kidding."
Elwood grabs the telescope to get a good look. "Hey, it's Nick Nolte. And it looks like he doesn't have any eyelashes. Ewwwwwwwww."
"Yea. Let's look at that bald eagle and blue heron over there. Much more pleasant sight. Whaddya say, Elwood?"
"Yep. I'm scarred for life and traumatized after seeing Nick Nolte in the shower. Wow!"
// posted by Janet @ 1:41 PM
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Saturday, November 15, 2008
It's a Beautiful Day
And I am alive for this day. Yesterday was a good day for me. I felt well enough to piddle around my house and clean it up a bit. You see, I was expecting guests. My good buddy, Tina, and her husband traveled here from Colorado to see their son who is a sophomore at one of our local colleges. In the process, they stopped by to see me. Tina was my college roomie and the maid of honor at our wedding and I was her matron of honor. We have been good friends since the eighth grade. Tina is one of the funniest people on earth. If she had not been a teacher, she could have made it as a stand up comic. She visited me last summer with my other friends but it was great fun to see her again. Cancer has touched her life in a big way as well. Her six year old nephew has been fighting non-Hodgkin's lymphoma for two years. He has been going through chemo all of this time. Man, I tell ya, to have a child go through the struggle.....no words. They are hopeful that at this point they may be able to get on with their life. The chemo has done its work.
One of the gifts of having cancer is the visits I have had from old friends and local friends. You cannot know how it lifts my spirit to be able to connect with people I love. My Mom informed me that she and my brother, who I have not seen lately, are flying here for my birthday right after Christmas. I am so excited and hopeful that we will be able to go out to a restaurant to celebrate. Birthdays are at a premium for me now!
I am going to get all religious here again. That's me. I cannot imagine going through something like this without faith. My good childhood friend, Vida, said it well when she said it would be so lonely facing such struggles without God. Yes, indeed. Here is a part of a prayer from my trusty "Praying Through Cancer" book from page 141. I love the words:
Lord Jesus, open my spiritual ears to "hear" Your gentle whispers of comfort, peace, and assurance. Even though I feel like I'm enduring a tornado in my life, I know You desire that I simply be still and know that You are God. Thank You for Your promise to sustain me on my sickbed and restore me from my bed of illness. You are faithful. ...... Amen
I hear the gentle whispers from all of my friends and family and all of those people all over the world who have me in their prayers. Being still and sensing the power of the presence of God was the advice my priest first gave to me when I told him about my diagnosis. Since that time, my now former priest, has been diagnosed with prostate cancer. Surgery appears to have worked for him but he has faced the same fears and questions. He, too, recently visited me and now we minister to one another. If you listen for those whispers, the mysterious work of God in our lives is truly amazing.
Ok, now to a more mundane subject---TV. The election is over along with the political commercials. We have Billy Mays back as loud as ever and I see now he is touting this glue to mend rips. He even applies it to a parachute for a repair job and shows a person jumping out of an airplane with the fixed parachute. All I have to say about that is that the person jumping out of the plane is not Billy Mays. I wonder what prayer he was saying to himself on the way down. Also, we are beginning to see holiday ads and receive tons of catalogs in the mail. Personally, I am grateful for the early Christmas commercials. There were days back in June when I frankly was not sure I would live to see Christmas. Now I know and I feel deep down inside that I am not leaving this earth for a while.
But, I am bothered by something I see in several of the catalogs. They like to sell Thanksgiving china. Usually, the patterns are of frightening roosters or gigantic fully feathered turkeys. I don't get it. We do not serve a luscious steak on a plate with a colorful living cow. I certainly do not want to eat my Thanksgiving turkey on a plate where when I scrape the gravy aside, I see a puffed up bird who has not yet had his head cut off. Not only this, but the china would only be used one day out of the entire year. At least Christmas china can be used daily for about a month as well as on Christmas day. No offense to those of you who have colorful bird decorated Thanksgiving dishes but this is beyond my understanding.
Yep. This year I am looking forward to all of the lead up to Christmas including everything tacky. Yesterday, I went to the drugstore and walked through the Christmas aisle. I stood there for a few minutes realizing I felt good and knowing I am going to be alive this Christmas.
And I smiled a big smile!
And I am alive for this day. Yesterday was a good day for me. I felt well enough to piddle around my house and clean it up a bit. You see, I was expecting guests. My good buddy, Tina, and her husband traveled here from Colorado to see their son who is a sophomore at one of our local colleges. In the process, they stopped by to see me. Tina was my college roomie and the maid of honor at our wedding and I was her matron of honor. We have been good friends since the eighth grade. Tina is one of the funniest people on earth. If she had not been a teacher, she could have made it as a stand up comic. She visited me last summer with my other friends but it was great fun to see her again. Cancer has touched her life in a big way as well. Her six year old nephew has been fighting non-Hodgkin's lymphoma for two years. He has been going through chemo all of this time. Man, I tell ya, to have a child go through the struggle.....no words. They are hopeful that at this point they may be able to get on with their life. The chemo has done its work.
One of the gifts of having cancer is the visits I have had from old friends and local friends. You cannot know how it lifts my spirit to be able to connect with people I love. My Mom informed me that she and my brother, who I have not seen lately, are flying here for my birthday right after Christmas. I am so excited and hopeful that we will be able to go out to a restaurant to celebrate. Birthdays are at a premium for me now!
I am going to get all religious here again. That's me. I cannot imagine going through something like this without faith. My good childhood friend, Vida, said it well when she said it would be so lonely facing such struggles without God. Yes, indeed. Here is a part of a prayer from my trusty "Praying Through Cancer" book from page 141. I love the words:
Lord Jesus, open my spiritual ears to "hear" Your gentle whispers of comfort, peace, and assurance. Even though I feel like I'm enduring a tornado in my life, I know You desire that I simply be still and know that You are God. Thank You for Your promise to sustain me on my sickbed and restore me from my bed of illness. You are faithful. ...... Amen
I hear the gentle whispers from all of my friends and family and all of those people all over the world who have me in their prayers. Being still and sensing the power of the presence of God was the advice my priest first gave to me when I told him about my diagnosis. Since that time, my now former priest, has been diagnosed with prostate cancer. Surgery appears to have worked for him but he has faced the same fears and questions. He, too, recently visited me and now we minister to one another. If you listen for those whispers, the mysterious work of God in our lives is truly amazing.
Ok, now to a more mundane subject---TV. The election is over along with the political commercials. We have Billy Mays back as loud as ever and I see now he is touting this glue to mend rips. He even applies it to a parachute for a repair job and shows a person jumping out of an airplane with the fixed parachute. All I have to say about that is that the person jumping out of the plane is not Billy Mays. I wonder what prayer he was saying to himself on the way down. Also, we are beginning to see holiday ads and receive tons of catalogs in the mail. Personally, I am grateful for the early Christmas commercials. There were days back in June when I frankly was not sure I would live to see Christmas. Now I know and I feel deep down inside that I am not leaving this earth for a while.
But, I am bothered by something I see in several of the catalogs. They like to sell Thanksgiving china. Usually, the patterns are of frightening roosters or gigantic fully feathered turkeys. I don't get it. We do not serve a luscious steak on a plate with a colorful living cow. I certainly do not want to eat my Thanksgiving turkey on a plate where when I scrape the gravy aside, I see a puffed up bird who has not yet had his head cut off. Not only this, but the china would only be used one day out of the entire year. At least Christmas china can be used daily for about a month as well as on Christmas day. No offense to those of you who have colorful bird decorated Thanksgiving dishes but this is beyond my understanding.
Yep. This year I am looking forward to all of the lead up to Christmas including everything tacky. Yesterday, I went to the drugstore and walked through the Christmas aisle. I stood there for a few minutes realizing I felt good and knowing I am going to be alive this Christmas.
And I smiled a big smile!
// posted by Janet @ 10:45 AM
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Thursday, November 13, 2008
Made It!
The chemo is affecting me harder as I near the end. Yesterday, I was unhooked from my pump and usually I feel pretty good on pump unhooking day. But I felt yucky and I think it may have had to do with the fact that I received a flu shot on Monday. When I went to bed last night, I took a Tylenol and then two more in the middle of the night and I sweated all over the place. I felt a little better this morning but still not great.
I missed three days of walking so I was determined to get outside today in the after rain sun. We pulled out from a closet Apolo's poke collar last weekend. We used it to train him when he was a puppy in order to keep him from pulling. Some people think they are cruel but it definitely works. I took off on a walk today with Apolo in his torture device and I must say I had no problems. We passed a couple of dogs and he just stayed right with me.
I made it on my 30 minute uphill version of my walk. We have been having rain and wind and I noticed a big tree had blown down on the path at the end of the street above my house. And then when I returned home, I managed to clean up three days worth of Apolo doggie piles in the back yard.
Yep! I made it!
The chemo is affecting me harder as I near the end. Yesterday, I was unhooked from my pump and usually I feel pretty good on pump unhooking day. But I felt yucky and I think it may have had to do with the fact that I received a flu shot on Monday. When I went to bed last night, I took a Tylenol and then two more in the middle of the night and I sweated all over the place. I felt a little better this morning but still not great.
I missed three days of walking so I was determined to get outside today in the after rain sun. We pulled out from a closet Apolo's poke collar last weekend. We used it to train him when he was a puppy in order to keep him from pulling. Some people think they are cruel but it definitely works. I took off on a walk today with Apolo in his torture device and I must say I had no problems. We passed a couple of dogs and he just stayed right with me.
I made it on my 30 minute uphill version of my walk. We have been having rain and wind and I noticed a big tree had blown down on the path at the end of the street above my house. And then when I returned home, I managed to clean up three days worth of Apolo doggie piles in the back yard.
Yep! I made it!
// posted by Janet @ 1:39 PM
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Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Chemo Room Gossip
1. Private room. Actually, since I had a private room and bed (YES!), I did not eavesdrop on other patient's conversations. I did meet with the oncology nurse about my neuropathies. I guess I have to be severely gimpy for them to stop the one drug that has this side effect. In other words, my feet would have to be so numb that I could barely walk. I am not in that category and with only one chemo left, he thought I could handle it and that what I am experiencing will not be permanent. This was uplifting to hear. Worrying about it was definitely bothering me.
2. Young Women. Even though I had a private room, I left it frequently to use the bathroom (every 15 minutes the last hour) because of all of the fluids pumped into me. I noticed in two of the rooms near me very young attractive women in their 20's or early 30's. Since they both had full heads of hair, I am assuming they are in the early stages of chemo. It just breaks my heart to see such young people fighting this disease.
3. Cleanliness. They work hard at SCCA to keep things sanitary. When you first come in the building, they check you for respiratory illness. My last chemo, this woman had a cold. They let her in for her chemo but made her wear a mask. If you appear to be too sick, they will not let you proceed any further. The garbage is picked up from each room I swear every 15 minutes. And believe me, there is a lot of waste produced from just me. Every single bag and tube is thrown away. All of the injection needles for flushing my port, all of the gloves worn, and the gowns they put on to protect themselves from the chemicals going into me are all discarded in the room's medical waste bin. The nurses all wash their hands and use the squirt hand sanitizer hooked on the wall in each room. The bathrooms are also cleaned about every 15 minutes. Even so, I still wash the clothing and socks I had on when I get home.
4. Boston Legal. Ok, this has nothing to do with chemo except that we watch it every Monday night in bed. Sometimes after chemo, I fall asleep and do not see the results of the courtroom action. Last night I stayed awake. I loved how the attorney with Asperger's Syndrome defended himself against the Starbuck's bully and won. I was cheering from my bed. Also, I thought they handled the abortion issue fairly. They made the point clearly that people who are pro-choice are NOT pro-abortion. Abortion is a terrible circumstance that is best left between a woman and her doctor. In my opinion, there are too many gray areas to have the government involved by outlawing it completely and sending women into back alleys. They say when Democrats are in charge and the economy does better, the number of abortions decreases. Isn't this what we all want---fewer of them?
5. Ellen. I watched the Ellen Show since I am hooked up to my pump. She had a young singer on aged 18 named Taylor Swift. To be honest, I thought she was darling but I was not impressed with her singing. Perhaps it is because I am not a country music fan. I always catch myself wondering if I should have looked for an agent for Kaley when she was in her early teens. I considered it. At a middle school talent show, Kaley sang a song she had written while accompanying herself on the guitar. It was fabulous. She sings better that the Taylor Swifts of the world and she can write her own music. But I thought Kaley should have a normal high school experience and growing up time. Trying to make it in the music business is extremely difficult and I thought it best to leave such things for Kaley to decide as an adult.
6. Veteran's Day. Today I remember my Dad who fought in two wars, WW2 and the Korean Conflict. He was a bombardier in the Air Force and flew bombing missions over Germany and Korea. During WW2, he was shot down and spent nine months in a Nazi prison camp. In fact, my Mom gave a talk yesterday on the subject of my Dad's prison camp time to a German History class at Carroll College in Helena. It was well received by the young students. He was always a proud veteran and proud of his service to our country. And as his daughter, I have always been in awe of his bravery and strength to survive what he did. Finally, I give a big shout out of support to our troops in both Iraq and Afghanistan and I thank them for their service to our beloved country and their courage.
1. Private room. Actually, since I had a private room and bed (YES!), I did not eavesdrop on other patient's conversations. I did meet with the oncology nurse about my neuropathies. I guess I have to be severely gimpy for them to stop the one drug that has this side effect. In other words, my feet would have to be so numb that I could barely walk. I am not in that category and with only one chemo left, he thought I could handle it and that what I am experiencing will not be permanent. This was uplifting to hear. Worrying about it was definitely bothering me.
2. Young Women. Even though I had a private room, I left it frequently to use the bathroom (every 15 minutes the last hour) because of all of the fluids pumped into me. I noticed in two of the rooms near me very young attractive women in their 20's or early 30's. Since they both had full heads of hair, I am assuming they are in the early stages of chemo. It just breaks my heart to see such young people fighting this disease.
3. Cleanliness. They work hard at SCCA to keep things sanitary. When you first come in the building, they check you for respiratory illness. My last chemo, this woman had a cold. They let her in for her chemo but made her wear a mask. If you appear to be too sick, they will not let you proceed any further. The garbage is picked up from each room I swear every 15 minutes. And believe me, there is a lot of waste produced from just me. Every single bag and tube is thrown away. All of the injection needles for flushing my port, all of the gloves worn, and the gowns they put on to protect themselves from the chemicals going into me are all discarded in the room's medical waste bin. The nurses all wash their hands and use the squirt hand sanitizer hooked on the wall in each room. The bathrooms are also cleaned about every 15 minutes. Even so, I still wash the clothing and socks I had on when I get home.
4. Boston Legal. Ok, this has nothing to do with chemo except that we watch it every Monday night in bed. Sometimes after chemo, I fall asleep and do not see the results of the courtroom action. Last night I stayed awake. I loved how the attorney with Asperger's Syndrome defended himself against the Starbuck's bully and won. I was cheering from my bed. Also, I thought they handled the abortion issue fairly. They made the point clearly that people who are pro-choice are NOT pro-abortion. Abortion is a terrible circumstance that is best left between a woman and her doctor. In my opinion, there are too many gray areas to have the government involved by outlawing it completely and sending women into back alleys. They say when Democrats are in charge and the economy does better, the number of abortions decreases. Isn't this what we all want---fewer of them?
5. Ellen. I watched the Ellen Show since I am hooked up to my pump. She had a young singer on aged 18 named Taylor Swift. To be honest, I thought she was darling but I was not impressed with her singing. Perhaps it is because I am not a country music fan. I always catch myself wondering if I should have looked for an agent for Kaley when she was in her early teens. I considered it. At a middle school talent show, Kaley sang a song she had written while accompanying herself on the guitar. It was fabulous. She sings better that the Taylor Swifts of the world and she can write her own music. But I thought Kaley should have a normal high school experience and growing up time. Trying to make it in the music business is extremely difficult and I thought it best to leave such things for Kaley to decide as an adult.
6. Veteran's Day. Today I remember my Dad who fought in two wars, WW2 and the Korean Conflict. He was a bombardier in the Air Force and flew bombing missions over Germany and Korea. During WW2, he was shot down and spent nine months in a Nazi prison camp. In fact, my Mom gave a talk yesterday on the subject of my Dad's prison camp time to a German History class at Carroll College in Helena. It was well received by the young students. He was always a proud veteran and proud of his service to our country. And as his daughter, I have always been in awe of his bravery and strength to survive what he did. Finally, I give a big shout out of support to our troops in both Iraq and Afghanistan and I thank them for their service to our beloved country and their courage.
// posted by Janet @ 4:10 PM
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Saturday, November 08, 2008
How do I Feel?
Yesterday, I felt pretty good in the afternoon. Lucas came home to eat lunch with me during his noon break. I had two friends pay a delightful visit to me and I walked Apolo. Apolo was not a good dog when he decided to drag me across the street to stake his claim to the neighborhood over two dogs being nicely walked by their owner. I can no longer restrain him because I am not as strong as I used to be and do not weigh enough. The episode exhausted me.
Today, perhaps because I had a full day yesterday, I am not feeling great. The last two cycles of chemo have left me with numbness in my feet and my tongue. My hands are tingly as well. The scary thing is my oncologist told me that cold related neuropathies will diappear after chemo but other types of numbness may not. I am hoping that my body will regenerate this loss of feeling because it is annoying. I realize the neuropathy will not kill me but when I have trouble eating because of appetite, a numb tongue does not help. Also, I feel kind of rag doll tired. It is a struggle to be positive and hopeful when the cumulative effects of the chemo are getting to me.
Monday will be chemo #11 with only one more after that. Just the thought of one more chemo after Monday is spirit lifting, I must say. And I have to keep my mind on the fact that good chunks of the day, I am doing well.
Our weather has been rainy the last few days but at the moment, it is simply cloudy. I thought I'd take a picture of the disappearing leaves in Big Gulch behind our house. Compare the photo to the same shot in my post below. Our view expands without leaves from November to April.
Disappearing Leaves!
Yesterday, I felt pretty good in the afternoon. Lucas came home to eat lunch with me during his noon break. I had two friends pay a delightful visit to me and I walked Apolo. Apolo was not a good dog when he decided to drag me across the street to stake his claim to the neighborhood over two dogs being nicely walked by their owner. I can no longer restrain him because I am not as strong as I used to be and do not weigh enough. The episode exhausted me.
Today, perhaps because I had a full day yesterday, I am not feeling great. The last two cycles of chemo have left me with numbness in my feet and my tongue. My hands are tingly as well. The scary thing is my oncologist told me that cold related neuropathies will diappear after chemo but other types of numbness may not. I am hoping that my body will regenerate this loss of feeling because it is annoying. I realize the neuropathy will not kill me but when I have trouble eating because of appetite, a numb tongue does not help. Also, I feel kind of rag doll tired. It is a struggle to be positive and hopeful when the cumulative effects of the chemo are getting to me.
Monday will be chemo #11 with only one more after that. Just the thought of one more chemo after Monday is spirit lifting, I must say. And I have to keep my mind on the fact that good chunks of the day, I am doing well.
Our weather has been rainy the last few days but at the moment, it is simply cloudy. I thought I'd take a picture of the disappearing leaves in Big Gulch behind our house. Compare the photo to the same shot in my post below. Our view expands without leaves from November to April.
Disappearing Leaves!
// posted by Janet @ 12:20 PM
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Wednesday, November 05, 2008
My Thoughts
We have a new president-elect this morning and a new dawn for America. Lucas and Magali spent last evening with us and Kaley was connected to us by cell phone as we watched the returns. Seriously, I thought McCain would win because of past elections and the still huge undecided voters. This was my daughter's first presidential election and my son's second. I believe what has been hugely overlooked is the influence and the passion of the youth of our nation. My kids are typical. They were young during the Clinton scandal and this family was disgusted by Clinton's behavior. And the eight years of Bush have not turned out so well.
These kids were hungry for a leader. The youth have traveled abroad more than our generation ever did and they have been first hand witnesses to the degradation of America's reputation world wide. Barack Obama came along and they saw someone to be excited about. My children's generation has been raised to not see or judge someone by skin color. They do not see Obama as an African American but a leader who is super smart, inspirational, and a problem solver. Their passion for this man is way beyond race.
Obama is seen as cool, young and hip. The fact that John McCain has hardly used a computer was a huge turn off to these kids and propping his younger wife, Cindy, up behind him at every single appearance did nothing to change the fact that he is old and out of touch. Kaley kept telling me about Face Book and what was happeneing there and I admit I still do not understand what she was telling me. Obama is with it when it comes to technology and he used the internet, Face Book, My Space and e-mail to his advantage. Last night, when Obama was declared the winner, we immediately received a text message from our daughter that said, "America doesn't suck anymore!"
Young people registered to vote in record numbers and this time they actually voted. Eighteen to 29 year old's make up 18% of the electorate and as time continues, the number will grow. They favored Barack Obama 2 to 1 over McCain. Most of these younger people watch SNL, The Daily Show, and the Colbert Report. They saw the choice of Sarah Palin as a lame poltical attempt to attract women voters and to them she turned out to be a laughing stock. The youth are not just our future. They are our present and they chose their President yesterday without question.
I am proud of my children. I am proud they were engaged in this election and knew the issues. I am proud they cared. I am proud to see the spirit of patriotism and love for this country be ignited.
They grew up studying Martin Luther King and his words have come true today. He had a dream that his children would be judged not by the color of their skin but by the content of their character. My children now have a leader of character for the next few years and they are thrilled.
UPDATE: Last night Kaley told me that a huge group of students gathered on the Whitman campus on election night and marched to downtown Walla Walla to celebrate Obama's win. The students are continuing to feel ecstatic and feel like they actually changed the country after being apathetic in years past. She also reported hearing from friends on college campuses across the country that the very same thing happened every where else. In Seattle's U-district, students were buying up every local newspaper to save the big headline. Lucas told me to save the newspaper as well. In addition, there was an article today in the Seattle PI reporting that blue Seattleites are purchasing American flags in large numbers for the first time. It is all amazing to me.
http://seattlepi.nwsource.com/local/386617_patrioticsales06.html
(Paul Joseph Brown/Seattle PI)
We have a new president-elect this morning and a new dawn for America. Lucas and Magali spent last evening with us and Kaley was connected to us by cell phone as we watched the returns. Seriously, I thought McCain would win because of past elections and the still huge undecided voters. This was my daughter's first presidential election and my son's second. I believe what has been hugely overlooked is the influence and the passion of the youth of our nation. My kids are typical. They were young during the Clinton scandal and this family was disgusted by Clinton's behavior. And the eight years of Bush have not turned out so well.
These kids were hungry for a leader. The youth have traveled abroad more than our generation ever did and they have been first hand witnesses to the degradation of America's reputation world wide. Barack Obama came along and they saw someone to be excited about. My children's generation has been raised to not see or judge someone by skin color. They do not see Obama as an African American but a leader who is super smart, inspirational, and a problem solver. Their passion for this man is way beyond race.
Obama is seen as cool, young and hip. The fact that John McCain has hardly used a computer was a huge turn off to these kids and propping his younger wife, Cindy, up behind him at every single appearance did nothing to change the fact that he is old and out of touch. Kaley kept telling me about Face Book and what was happeneing there and I admit I still do not understand what she was telling me. Obama is with it when it comes to technology and he used the internet, Face Book, My Space and e-mail to his advantage. Last night, when Obama was declared the winner, we immediately received a text message from our daughter that said, "America doesn't suck anymore!"
Young people registered to vote in record numbers and this time they actually voted. Eighteen to 29 year old's make up 18% of the electorate and as time continues, the number will grow. They favored Barack Obama 2 to 1 over McCain. Most of these younger people watch SNL, The Daily Show, and the Colbert Report. They saw the choice of Sarah Palin as a lame poltical attempt to attract women voters and to them she turned out to be a laughing stock. The youth are not just our future. They are our present and they chose their President yesterday without question.
I am proud of my children. I am proud they were engaged in this election and knew the issues. I am proud they cared. I am proud to see the spirit of patriotism and love for this country be ignited.
They grew up studying Martin Luther King and his words have come true today. He had a dream that his children would be judged not by the color of their skin but by the content of their character. My children now have a leader of character for the next few years and they are thrilled.
UPDATE: Last night Kaley told me that a huge group of students gathered on the Whitman campus on election night and marched to downtown Walla Walla to celebrate Obama's win. The students are continuing to feel ecstatic and feel like they actually changed the country after being apathetic in years past. She also reported hearing from friends on college campuses across the country that the very same thing happened every where else. In Seattle's U-district, students were buying up every local newspaper to save the big headline. Lucas told me to save the newspaper as well. In addition, there was an article today in the Seattle PI reporting that blue Seattleites are purchasing American flags in large numbers for the first time. It is all amazing to me.
http://seattlepi.nwsource.com/local/386617_patrioticsales06.html
(Paul Joseph Brown/Seattle PI)
// posted by Janet @ 11:38 AM
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Monday, November 03, 2008
The Ads are Getting to Me
I just got back from the dentist. I had to cancel my regular appointment a while ago because with the chemo and feeling ill, going to the dentist was not a priority. But, chemo can be hard on gums and teeth so the oncology nurse suggested I make a visit. The dentist told me everything looked just fine! Whew! I must say going to the dentist now is not so bad when put in perspective alongside colonoscopies and chemotherapy.
At home now, the last thing I want to do is turn on the TV. At least I saw a hummingbird today. I was surprised to see one approach my hanging basket in November but seeing him was certainly more interesting than televsion now. I am tired of the political ads. Aren't we all? We have on our ballot a right to die initiative. For a cancer patient such as me, the ads both for and against are devastating. They either have a dying cancer patient begging us not to vote for it or they feature a family member of a cancer patient urging us to vote for it because the family member took advantage of the same type law in Oregon once the cancer had spread to vital organs. I just do not need to hear all of this a hundred times a day.
The most stupid ad on our TV is in our governor's race. It features several people passing around a baby clad in just a diaper. Of course, they all wrinkle up their noses at the terrible smell. It ends with the baby crawling away on the floor and the explanation about how things need to be changed. I seriously hate it.
Another ad that truly disturbs me is also in our tight governor's race. It shows a man with a gas can and a match. It starts out with him asking, "Why would you listen to a man with a gas can and a match?" It ends with him dousing a big pile of money with gasoline and lighting it on fire with the match. The idea is to persuade people that our governor has wasted money. The first time I saw the ad weeks ago, I thought it was irresponsible. I hope with all of my heart that it did not influence the man at the University to kill himself in exactly the same way.
Tomorrow it will all be over with hopefully and I can go back to hating or loving my regular commercials.
I just got back from the dentist. I had to cancel my regular appointment a while ago because with the chemo and feeling ill, going to the dentist was not a priority. But, chemo can be hard on gums and teeth so the oncology nurse suggested I make a visit. The dentist told me everything looked just fine! Whew! I must say going to the dentist now is not so bad when put in perspective alongside colonoscopies and chemotherapy.
At home now, the last thing I want to do is turn on the TV. At least I saw a hummingbird today. I was surprised to see one approach my hanging basket in November but seeing him was certainly more interesting than televsion now. I am tired of the political ads. Aren't we all? We have on our ballot a right to die initiative. For a cancer patient such as me, the ads both for and against are devastating. They either have a dying cancer patient begging us not to vote for it or they feature a family member of a cancer patient urging us to vote for it because the family member took advantage of the same type law in Oregon once the cancer had spread to vital organs. I just do not need to hear all of this a hundred times a day.
The most stupid ad on our TV is in our governor's race. It features several people passing around a baby clad in just a diaper. Of course, they all wrinkle up their noses at the terrible smell. It ends with the baby crawling away on the floor and the explanation about how things need to be changed. I seriously hate it.
Another ad that truly disturbs me is also in our tight governor's race. It shows a man with a gas can and a match. It starts out with him asking, "Why would you listen to a man with a gas can and a match?" It ends with him dousing a big pile of money with gasoline and lighting it on fire with the match. The idea is to persuade people that our governor has wasted money. The first time I saw the ad weeks ago, I thought it was irresponsible. I hope with all of my heart that it did not influence the man at the University to kill himself in exactly the same way.
Tomorrow it will all be over with hopefully and I can go back to hating or loving my regular commercials.
// posted by Janet @ 3:37 PM
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